Saturday, September 30, 2006

ONCE I WAS A CRUSADER through Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

"And they all forsook him and fled."
- Mark 14:50

Once I was a Crusader, fighting for lives to be born;
When I answered the call to be Herald,
Into duty I was faithfully sworn.
Oh I did my job as best I could,
While others on the sidelines stood.
When ready for Battle, we "Six Million" found,
The "Callers for Help" were nowhere around.
One by one the faint-hearted stepped back,
Leaving me alone to face the attack.
When I was surrounded, captured and tried,
The "Callers for Help" now stepped forward and lied.
"He's the One! He's the One! Punish him as you will;
Though one of us, we're not with Him; take Him to the Hill.”

They chained me to "Two Pillars" so I could be seen by All,
A defeated object of ridicule, the Champion in His Fall.
But the Lord did not forsake me; he opened my prison door,
Then set me loose among you and silenced my mighty roar.
Those who are the Chosen will soon leave you all behind;
At the mercy of this Betrayed One; pray that I'll be kind.


through Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

[First Published: The Voice of Theophilus: Official Publication of the National Interfaith Pro-Life Crusade, Encino, California, December 8, 1976.]

For this reason, you have been called:
To appoint you as a witness not only to the things which you have seen but also to the things which will appear to you.

Beloved of God: We are told that we are weak --- unable to withstand so strong an adversary as Fear. It is said that you will keep on hearing, but will not understand, and you will keep on seeing, but will not perceive; for they say your hearts have become dull, and have ears that can scarcely hear, and have closed eyes; It is said that you have seen many things, but you do not observe them; your ears are open, but none hears; that you see through a glass darkly. But the darkness is past and the time has come to speak plainly. We are being put to death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.

Hear this! On Monday, January 22, 1973, seven members of THE UNITED STATES SUPREME COURT ruled that the killing of an unborn child is an act protected by THE CONSTITUTION. Six million killings later --- SIX MILLION CONSTITUTIONALLY SANCTIONED KILLINGS LATER --- on Monday, August 30, 1976, abortion legislation, which was conceived in contraception, gave birth to the Nation’s first RIGHT-TO-DIE Bill. On October 1, 1976, Governor Jerry Brown of the State of California signed that bill!

By what authority are these things being done? Who are these men who dare to judge “the quality of human life?” The authority is certainly not from GOD, because GOD teaches --- GOD COMMANDS! “THOU SHALT NOT KILL!” By what authority, do men reputed for wisdom, who do not even know what life is, have the right to define what a meaningful life is?

What is Life? If you believe in GOD, then GOD is Life. If you believe there is no GOD, then you can only answer, “I do not know.” If you do not know what Life is, then how can you judge from ignorance? If you judge from opinion, as did the Court, and deny Life its expression, then you would deny GOD’s existence. If you deny GOD’s existence, then you should be ineligible for a position of authority in our system of government, for this nation is “ONE NATION, UNDER GOD, WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL.” If an opinion is based on ignorance, on “I do not know!”, then those who force this opinion on others more ignorant than themselves, have failed in their responsibility to favor reasonable doubt.

"Men in authority who fail to do their duty must be replaced. They are as guilty as those who commit crimes because they fail in their responsibility to their fellow men who are unable to protect themselves."

A man reputed for wisdom knows nothing and thinks that he knows. The perfection of human wisdom is knowledge of one’s ignorance of divine knowledge. We must take refuge in the unity of GOD’s quality against every quality. If a man thinks that he knows anything, he knows nothing, yet as he ought to know. It is only KNOWLEDGE that flies on two wings; OPINION has but one! OPINION is, therefore, defective and curtailed in flight.

Why then, have these men of the Court accepted the responsibility for six million killings? Why have these men pridefully accepted the blood of six million killings, and dared to forgive the sins of willful murderers by marking for death those that are witnesses to their sins? The answer is PRIDE, the father of deadly sin! Is it not written, “Nor shall the children be put to death for their fathers; everyone shall be put to death for his own sin." Why did not these men employ the very same rhetoric, logic, and cogency of argument, which they use to prevent their own forced retirement from the Court, which they feel is unfair, to protect the sanctity of human life, not only in the Court but wherever human life is found? Does it not seem absurd that the unborn has no right to be defended? Or at least, to indicate the charges against it that are not based on opinion, expediency, or profit? No one has the right to become arrogant in behalf of one against another. For who regards another as superior? Is it not true that by One Spirit are we all baptized into one body, whether we be Jews or Christians, whether we be bound in our mother’s womb or free; and have been all made to drink into One Spirit? Is it not true that the life which dwells within the temple we call our bodies is the Spirit of GOD? Is it not true that if any man destroys the temple of GOD, GOD will destroy him, for the temple is holy, and that is what the body is? Do not foolishly regard the children of the flesh as the children of GOD. It is the children of the Promise, or the Spirit (through Isaac), who are regarded as descendants. Who pridefully places himself above GOD to bring a charge against GOD’s elect? Who is the one who condemns? Who is Man that he dares to answer back to GOD?

If it were a matter of wrong or vicious crime, it would be reasonable for the Court to judge the deed. But this is one of questions about words and names. The Court should have been unwilling to judge Nouns by their Adjectives. The charges are simply points of disagreement about the accusers’ own religion. And do not mistake Atheism for anything other than belief in GOD, because if they do not believe in GOD, then who is it they believe in to deny?

Why do they seek to kill the unborn? Why do they judge according to appearance, rather than with righteous judgment? Is it not the Spirit which gives life? The flesh profits nothing. They seek to kill the unborn because our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against error / falseness / confusion / ignorance / fear / doubt / darkness ---PRIDE! Nor can the charges of which the unborn is accused be proven. If an innocent unborn baby has committed anything worthy of death, the baby would not refuse to die; but if none the things is true of which the baby is accused, no one can hand him over to death.

But the unborn has no right to speak on his own behalf. This right has been denied him. For all of the things of which he is accused, he cannot speak! No answer can be given; not even to a single charge!

Woe to lawyers who enact evil statutes, and to those who constantly record unjust decisions. For the Court has exchanged the Truth of GOD for a lie. Professing to be wise, they have become as fools and exchanged the glory of incorruptible GOD for an image in the form of serpents. Note, too, the replacement of the Aesculapius (top), the traditional symbol of the medical profession’s noblest ideals, with the Caduceus (bottom): “I call (or lead) to Death.” And though they know the Law of GOD, that those who practice such things as the taking of an innocent life are worthy of death, they have given hearty approval to those who practice them. Therefore, anyone who passes judgment is without excuse; for if you judge. . do you suppose that you will escape The Judgment of GOD?

What man has the authority to judge GOD’s quality? There is no authority except from GOD, and those which exist are established by GOD! Therefore, let us all be in subjection to GOD, the giver of authority. It is not the wish of GOD that one of these little babies should perish. Their very existence witnesses the fact that GOD intended to create a human being, and to deprive a nascent human of life is MURDER! What evil have they done? Why have they been classed among criminals?

Fifty million innocent babies have been slaughtered since January 22, 1973. By oppression and judgment, fifty million lambs of GOD were taken away, cut off from the living, killed for the sins of their parents, burned, made into cosmetic soap, assigned garbage cans for graves, though they had done no wrong; nor spoken any falsehood.

Weep now for yourselves and for your children. The days are coming when it will be said: “Blessed are the wombs that never bore, and the breasts that never nursed.” Because if life is not safe, even in the mother’s womb. . . “For if they do these things when the wood is green, what will happen in the dry?”

The time has come to bear aloft the Sacred Host and collapse the Great Delusion of Fear whose threatening is a terror to the heart. Though nations are terrified by the signs of the heavens, do not fear them, for they are false and can do no harm. We THREE MILLION SOULS, who answered the Herald’s call to join THE NATIONAL INTERFAITH PRO-LIFE CRUSADE, are but the first of those to keep ourselves in the love of GOD, waiting anxiously for Our Lord Jesus Christ to reveal the Father’s Will for us. The second wave of three million souls is now preparing to also put on the full armor of GOD to withstand the schemes of darkness.

We THREE MILLION CHAMPIONS FOR LIFE, members of the NATIONAL INTERFAITH PRO-LIFE CRUSADE, armed in the strength of Hope for the promises of Our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, our faith evidenced by our works, loving one another as we were commanded to do, dedicated to the noblest of callings: the Mission of Mercy to the helpless, commit ourselves to serve as the instrument of GOD’s WILL.

THIS CRUSADE, which was launched August 1, 1976, owes its genesis to the inspiration of Archbishop Joseph L. Bernardine’s fearless example of devotion to moral principle, and we THREE MILLION share the conviction of the American Bishops, and have paid to support this conviction, that “the Supreme Court has challenged GOD’s Authority by daring to judge the quality of Human Life.” We believe that what GOD has joined together, this body of men, appointed by a man, cannot undo. We further believe that to deny human rights to those who are incapacitated, for any reason, on the basis of their “legal” competence is wrong. In terms of moral teaching, we THREE MILLION CHAMPIONS FOR LIFE, fully and actively support the American Bishop’s declaration that “the opinion of the Court is wrong, and is entirely contrary to the fundamental principles of morality.”

We are fifty million souls, armed in the holy cause of THE TWO GREAT COMMANDMENTS; devoted to THE WORD OF GOD, with faith in GOD’s love for us. Is this a minority? 22.8% of the over-all UNITED STATES population? Together we are invincible by any force which our adversary, Death, can send against us. WE SHALL NOT FIGHT THIS BATTLE ALONE. There is a just GOD who presides over the destinies of men who walk in His love. There is no retreat from moral principle but in submission and slavery. Cowards may wish to extend the matter and cry, “Compromise, Compromise!” But there is no compromise. GOD’s sorrow has already begun! Our brothers, our baby brothers, whom GOD has commanded that we love, are already being slaughtered upon the Field of Death; OUR GRAVES ARE ALREADY DUG! The stench of Death and Burned Babies is reeking from every Death Mill in the world. The Holy War between Life and Death is not only inevitable, IT IS HERE! SO LET IT BE! Let us firmly resolve to not stand by disoriented; to support the moral teachings of the American Bishops. Is life so sweet and compromise so dear as to be purchased at the price of GOD’s Children? FORBID IT ALMIGHTY GOD! “STRIKE DOWN THE SHEPHERD AND SCATTER THE SHEEP!!”

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

The Law of Accelerating Returns Explained by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

There is a substrate of Terrorism that is growing exponentially out of the purview of our linear perspective. A monolithic block of Terrorism will soon be presenting itself almost without notice. Think of a so-called isolated terror threat as a lily pad on a pond. As days go by, there is a natural doubling progression of lily pads upon that pond. Because we are looking at it through our linear perspective, we feel that we have time to take a week's vacation and deal with the growing lily pad problem when we return. However, upon that return, we find that the pond is completely covered in lily pads. Yesterday, it was only half covered. Already, this war has lasted longer than World War II. We need to wake up and pull this threat out by the roots now, before we are bent over a chopping block with a sword on our necks.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006


Catholics are being asked to suspend their intelligence and to accept what they see before them as a natural spiritual progression, doctrinal evolvement, and welcome changes in a Church they believe to be the same Catholic Church it has always been.

In 1964, during the pontificate of Pope Paul VI, "The National Catholic Reporter," whose initial source of funding sorely needs to be investigated, was condemned by the Catholic Church for attacking the Doctrine of Papal Infallibility.

The Church then asked the Courts to stop the NCR from using the name "Catholic" because they feared Catholics would believe that it was an official organ of the Church, rather than one that was condemned by it. The Church was also fearful that this deception would be used to infiltrate and morally poison the Church. Obviously, the Courts sided with the NCR because that end has been achieved in only 42 years.

Would the Courts have allowed the existence of an independent newspaper named, "The National Jewish Reporter" whose sole raison d'etre was to destroy Jewish theology and traditions and ordain embezzling child molesters as Rabbis, if B'nai B'rith rightfully objected? Of course not! If anyone believes that this is still the Catholic Church, take a closer look.

The True Church died September 28, 1978, when Albino Luciani, Pope John Paul I, our last Italian Pope, died under very mysterious circumstances.

Pope Paul VI, his predecessor, once remarked before his own death, that the “Smoke of Satan has infiltrated the Vatican.”

Pick up any newspaper or magazine; listen to any radio or TV news program, and the sins of today’s Church, the ones they’re unable to cover up, the ones draining the cash out of the coffers, e.g., child molestation, pedophilia, embezzlement, etc., are an embarrassment to Catholics everywhere.

According to the Washington Post, “Last year Catholic dioceses in the U.S. spent $399 million on legal settlements with sex-abuse victims. Thus far, the church has spent about $1.5 billion settling claims by 12,500 people against 5,000 priests.”

How many poor, sick, hungry children could Mother Teresa have helped with that money? Because that's the fund they used for the payoffs.

Every Catholic should ask him or herself if this is the same Church of their fathers and mothers when it was safe to send your children to a Confessional that didn't have a door that locked from the inside. Is it any wonder that parents everywhere are crying out, "Come out from her my children!"

Monday, September 25, 2006

Review of Ed Anton's "Repentance: A Cosmic Shift of Mind and Heart" by Steve Savage

[Photo: Ed Anton and wife, Deborah. Ed is a minister with the Hampton Roads Church, Virginia Beach, VA. Deborah is a Pediatrician whose practice is also in Virginia Beach. They have 3 sons: Zack, Chase, and Caleb; and daughter Lindsay.]

Dharma: “Of all the world’s wonders, which is the most wonderful?”

Yudisthira: “That no man, though he sees others dying all around him, believes that he himself will not die.”
– Bhagavad Gita

Just imagine! Here we are, not knowing who we are, where we came from, why we are here, where we are going, smack dab in the middle of Zero and Infinity, stuck on a great big round ball, scared half out of our minds, ignorant as all get out, looking for reassurance from others relatively more intelligent than we, while as absolutely equally ignorant as we, knowing full well in the depths of our souls that we are about to witness the Greatest Pyrotechnical Display since the Big Bang. Are Global Warming, Lawlessness, Chaos, Droughts, Earthquakes, Pestilence and Disease, Wars, Famines, Fires, and increased Natural Disasters, the "Signs of Our Times?" Are we witnessing the effects of the "Sword" that Jesus brought? Are we now witnessing the "Blaze" that Jesus let loose upon the Earth? Whatever you do, "be as wily as the serpent and as innocent as the dove;" don't get caught up and drawn into the Blame Game by "throwing stones at City Hall." Pointing fingers didn't keep the Titanic from sinking. No one really knows when the "End" will come, but current ambience sure looks like a darn good verisimilitude. The voices of the TV John the Baptists are everywhere, crying out from the wilderness of their "Money Rooms" to "Repent!" But what exactly is "Repentance" and how do we really go about it? Read the story of the Prodigal Son. It is the best allegory of true Repentance. It is the realization that after all the suffering and misery that you brought upon yourself, someone who has always loved you is waiting to greet you with open arms to welcome you home as though you never left. If you can't make it all the way home by yourself, go as far as you can; the One you need to see will meet you there. If you don't know how to begin the journey home, how to repent, Edward J. Anton, himself a repented servant of God, has written down complete instructions in his divinely inspired "Repentance: A Cosmic Shift of Mind and Heart."

Sunday, September 24, 2006

"WHO'S WORKING THE MAIN GATE?" by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

The post is now vacant, at the Main Gate, where all of our friends once stood;
Who is there now to take their place, as if anyone ever could?
The rain that falls upon that lonely Guard Shack, mirrors the tears we shed,
As we think of the hundreds of memories we shared in the life they led.
O’ those Guards! They were our own – members of the “Kagnew Gang;”
Those wonderful, unforgettable Buddies, whose exploits we all sang.
How can it be the same without them; those whom we loved to call “friend?”
Remembrance of the joy they gave us so saddens us at this end.
Poets say April is the cruelest month, but each month will be our time to mourn;
As we try to mend the holes in our hearts from which so many of us were torn.

"WHY THE UNIVERSE IS EXPANDING" by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

It Really is a "Big Bang!"

The number 300 in the Kabbalah is “Shin.” It means the Spirit of God (Ayn). Modern science has given a new name to this entity - "Singularity."

The Number 200 in the Kabbalah is "Resh." It is the Cosmic Container (Ayn Soph). This is also known as the Divine Mother, Queen of Heaven, etc. This is the Space into which the Singularity is expanding. Self expanding into Self.

I experienced Two Spheres within an Oval.
The Oval, I sensed, was the Absolute, the Undivided Whole, Absolute Existence, the Cosmic Egg.

The two spheres, I sensed, were the Absolute divided within itself. Where they are separated is the "Morula," Experiential Boundary; each Relative Existence: One (Awareness) experiencing the Other (the Observed); "The Self experiencing the Self." In Acts 27:41, Paul refers to this as "The place where the Two Great Seas meet." It is the Archetype of Conception's first cellular division stage, the Blastula; very appropiate, since its origin is "the Big Bang."

Suddenly, within the Oval, to the left of the Two Spheres, the number 3 appeared, zoomed larger than the spheres, rose above them, then settled back to the same size as the spheres, giving the appearance of the number 300 contained within the Oval..

This is the Spirit of God (ayn) 300 contained within the Cosmic Egg/Container (ayn soph) 200. Together – the Ayn Soph Aur (Cosmic Conception).

Mathematically, 300 > 200; i.e., 300 is greater than 200.

With “Less,” i.e. "200", the Cosmic Egg, containing “More,” i.e. "300," Cosmic Sperm, it's little wonder the Universe is expanding. Kind of like putting a gallon of water in a teacup and not spilling any.

On the plane of Human Existence, we call this "Pregnancy."

Awareness/Consciousness/Life is contained within Existence/Body/Matter.

Everything you see is an expression of the One. Because of Fractal Complexity we believe that we are perceiving actual differences, when, in fact, they are virtual.

Hermes Trimegistus, Thoth, Jesus, among others, were correct when they taught: "As Above so Below; as in the Inner, so in the Outer." "Thy Will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven."

Modern science refers to this process as "Reiteration."

Sunday, September 17, 2006


By Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

"The greatest scientific problem of all time, the Sangraal of Physics, is the quest to unite the Quantum Theory with Gravity, thereby, creating a theory of everything. It is universally accepted that whoever solves this problem will win the Nobel Prize.

The Maxwell and Yang-Mills Field, i.e., the Standard Model, while a comprehensive theory of all matter, is deficient in that it addresses Electromagnetism, the Strong Force and the Weak Force, but not Gravity." Steven Kaufman's "Unified Reality Theory" is an absolutely brilliant, and yes, poetic scientific treatise in its highest sense, that very persuasively fills in that hole.

Through the inspired use of words in the "First I tell them what I'm going to tell them, then I tell them, then I tell them what I told them" format, coupled with Karen Kaufman's magnificent graphic representations of those words, Steven Kaufman, like Dante's Virgil, grabs us by the hand of our intuition and leads us into the realm wherein lies Life's most esoteric secrets by "transforming our awareness to unlock the door to the Infinite." "Unified Reality Theory" is the "Upanishads," the "Vedas," "Knowledge of the Fourth," the ringing of the "Bell of Truth" you've only dimly heard beyond the hill until now, expressed in the language of our times.

This is not an easy read. It is a textbook that needs to be carefully studied in that fashion. It's true that "the gate is small and the way is narrow that leads to [understanding], and few are those who find it." However, for those of you whose "Temple Veil" has been torn, persevere! "By the grace of the Self, the Self is known. The Self reveals the Self."

It is in the untying of the "Gordian Knot" whence comes Knowledge and Understanding. Cutting is not truly expediency; it is an admission of ignorance and frustration. I consider the accomplishment of having read and finished "Unified Reality Theory" with complete understanding of what it is that I had read, very rewarding. Imagine the joy of finding agreement with that which you have known all along but could not express for fear of being thought insane by the "Blind Guides."

Friday, September 15, 2006

"The Star of Bethlehem" by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

The Star of Bethlehem, which heralded the birth of Jesus, was actually a 2,160-year recurrence of the Jupiter Effect, i.e., the time when all of the planets of our Solar System line up and give the appearance of a single Bright Star. The date of our last Jupiter Effect was on my 43rd birthday, March 28, 1980.

The gravitational pull on our Earth was greatly increased, creating enormous tectonic stress, causing Mt. Saint Helens to become active and subsequently blow May 18, 1980.

One year earlier, to the day, March 28, 1979, the Three Mile Island Nuclear Meltdown Incident occurred, eerily foreshadowed by the "China Syndrome" movie of that same year.

Because there is a 2,160-year interval between Jupiter Effects, or Stars of Bethlehem, The "Star of Bethlehem," or Jupiter Effect, that preceded the Jupiter Effect of March 28, 1980, subtracting 2,160 years, would be 180 B.C. by today's calendar.

What? Why we all thought that Jesus was born in 1 A.D. No wonder we're having so much trouble trying to get a historical handle on whether or not He existed. Somebody must have been playing games with the calendar because 180 years have disappeared into thin air. That somebody was Julius Caesar.

We must not forget that Caesar was not only the Supreme Political Power of Rome, He was also the Pontifex Maximus, the Supreme Pontiff, what we would call a Pope today. Whatever was Rome in the past, is still Rome today. The names may be changed but the hierarchical structure is identical.

The story of Jesus may have actually happened 180 years before we are taught to believe that it happened. This means that he was Crucified in 146 B.C. and not 33A.D.

One hundred years later, in 46 B.C., under Julius Caesar, Sosigenes, whose name means "Saviour of our people," an astronomer of Egypt about whom nothing is known, authored the Reform of the Calendar. WHY?

THE ANSWER TO THE REAL RIDDLE OF THE SPHINX by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

How would you like to know something that no one has ever known until now? We all know the familiar story of Oedipus answering the Riddle of the Sphinx. However, this Sphinx was a woman outside of Thebes. It was probably a story concocted because no one has ever been able to answer the Riddle of the True Sphinx which lines up with the Pyramid of Khafre at the foot of its causeway, in Egypt.The most popular and current theory of the Sphinx holds that it was commissioned by the 4th Dynasty King, Khafre (2558-2532 BCE), one of the sons of Khufu (AKA Cheops).

Everyone is familiar with the popular Game Show, Jeopardy, where the Answer is given and the contestant must supply the Question.You have all heard at sometime in your life: "What is the Question?" That's because the Sphinx is the Oldest Answer which begs a Question. We need to know that Question because we need to know when the World, as we know it, began; Bishop Usher's 4400 B.C. and Science's 6 Billion Years Ago, notwithstanding.

Before you can ask that Question, you must first know the Answer. Look carefully at the Sphinx. It has the Head of a Woman and the Body of a Lion. I will now give you that Question: "Where does a Circle begin and where does it end?" The Sphinx Answers: "It begins in Virgo and ends in Leo!"

That's right. Every 2,150 years there is a Precession of the Vernal Equinox. The Suns apparent position moves a little bit west in a constellation when observed on the same day each year; it takes an equinox sun approximately 2,150 years to transit one of the twelve constellations on its 25,800-year jaunt around the Zodiac. We are now in the Age of Aquarius, the Communications Age, which dawned February 4, 1962, the birthday of our 40th President, Ronald Reagan, "The Great Communicator." Aquarius rules Communications, the Air, etc. The Vernal Point moves backwards through the Zodiac.

When it began in Pisces (The 2 Fish swimming in opposite directions), the "Fish" symbolized the ministry of Jesus Christ: Multiplying of the loaves and fishes, Apostles as Fishers of men, drawing the 2 lines to resemble a fish.

Before that, the Point was in Aries (The Ram), note: Ramses the Pharoah, Abraham sacrificing the Ram found in the thicket in place of Isaac, Jacob separating the Lambs from the Goats. Jesus, the "Lamb of God" was the sacrifice whose death ended the Age of Aries and ushered in the Piscean Age.

When the Vernal Point was in Taurus (The Bull), we had Bull worship throughout Mesopotamia, Zeus in the form of a Bull mating with Europa, Aaron's Golden Calf, Yama the god of Death was represented as a Bull, Krishna of Hinduism was a Cow Herder; there was the Minotaur of Crete.

The Age of Gemini (The Twins) Jacob and Esau, Castor and Pollux, Peleg and Joktan, "the day the earth was split in two."

Before that was the Age of Cancer(The Crab), the definitive Water Sign: The time of the Great Flood, Noah, Epic of Gilgamesh, etc.

The Age of Virgo (The Virgin) began approximately 15,000 years ago. It began at the end of Libra (Justice) when we were all exiled to this place. Virgo (the Divine Mother) went into exile with us because she could not bear to be without Her children. She is also called Sophia, Wisdom, the Shekinah, etc. Matthew 2:18, "A voice was heard in Ramah, lamentation, weeping and great mourning, Rachel (the lamb of God) weeping for her children; she wouldn't be comforted, because they are no more."

We have approximately 11,000 years before we get to Leo ( The Lion), the "Tail End" of the story, i.e., when "the Lion lies down with the Lamb" and Leo and Aries become One. Until then, no one is going anywhere until that Warrior King of the Beasts shows up, whoever He is.


The world is my impression, my reflection, my echo, the mold of my Self; the Observer and the Observed are One. The Observer is trying to understand the Self by asking the Eternal Questions: “Who am I?” “Where did I come from?” “Why am I here?’’ “What’s this all about?” and seeking answers in the Reality that the Self, the Singularity, created, not by design, not by intent, but out of necessity to know, to be, to continue, to learn, the process of Self realization, looking for agreement with itself.

IT IS THE QUESTION THAT IS THE ANSWER by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

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             WHO AM I?
We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time – T.S. Eliot

August 1973, at age 36, I experienced what is now popularly termed “Cosmic Consciousness” in the presence of two witnesses. Because the “Experience” was so profound, I have been driven to read every word of 1,000’s of books, scriptures, esoteric texts, ad infinitum, including the Tao Te Ching, The Mahabharata translated by Krishna Dharma, Ramayana, The Bhagavad Gita, Srimad Bhagavatam, Brahma Sutras, NAS Bible, Upanishads, Vedas, The Nature of Consciousness: Structure of Reality by Jerry Wheatley, Kabbalah, Science, Philosophy, Metaphysics, Scriptures of every faith, Histories, Biographies, Genetics, Nanotechnology, Robotics, Artificial Intelligence studies etc., indefatigably, unrelentingly, for more than 43 years, seeking answers as to what it was that I had experienced. There was no time to write a book of my own. To what end; to cast pearls before swine? Nothing else has occupied my lifetime except the Quest. Of the 1,000's of books that looked for me, were read by me, a select few have given names to, and are in agreement with, the elements of the "Experience": 1. "Cosmic Consciousness" by Maurice Buck 2. The Brihadaranyaka Upanishad;  3. Proverbs 8:22-27; and 4. "The Wisdom of the Vedas," by J.C. Chatterji in which I was amazed to discover an exact description of the Unitive Vision, the Third of Eight Major Spiritual Experiences in my life in Part I, the chapter titled "Waking Up." Perhaps it was necessary to have read the teachings of the “herders of other men’s cows,” those “Blind who lead the Blind,” who, desiring to be known and adulated, have shown their egocentric delusions to be in stark contrast to the cogency of argument put forth by Bucke and the Vedanta. If you are one who has been baptized in the “fire,” are on the Quest, and know the Truth when you hear it, keep in mind that only he who has walked the Path knows the Doctrine. I can assure you that I know the Doctrine. Who am I? I am Who, The Thinker, who first asked the Eternal Questions!

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

DON'T GET OLDER, GET BETTER by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

STEVE SAVAGE "King of the Beasts" Age 80, Ht. 6'0, Wt. 220 lbs.

Exercise will take the amount of time provided to do it in. Yeah, I know, that’s “Parkinson’s Law.” If you’re like me, exercise of any kind can get to be a drag. I’ve done them all for all of my life: Free Weights, Machines, Bullworkers, Total Gyms, Nordicflex, you name it. It gets old fast. The trick is, how can you get the maximum amount of benefit from the least amount of exercise? How much intensity do you have to put out to get the best results without knocking yourself out? Well, I’m 80 years old. This morning I did 100 non-stop pushups, then 4 more sets of 50 non-stop pushups, T’ai Chi and Kung Fu katas, Heavy Bag, one of the three Yoga routines taken from “Richard Hittleman’s 28 Day Yoga,” leg raises, Pilates Ab Exercises, Three-Minute Planks, and Yogametrics. The pushups are a self-test of my strength, the T’ai Chi, and Kung Fu is to program my body’s bio-mechanic defense responses in case I have to fight, the Pilates is to strengthen my core; and, Frank Rudolph Young’s Yogametrics is to strengthen my entire body, mind, and spirit to make sure I win that fight. The whole thing takes about an hour and a half.

Richard Hittleman's 28 Day Yoga Plan by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

This is the best easy to follow and stick to it Yoga there is.

In 1970, I purchased Hittleman's 28 Day Yoga book at a flea market. I was 33 years old and already beginning to feel the effects of arthritis. It was all I could do to exit a car or bend down to lift the toilet seat. I was a rusty gate.

Today at 72, thanks to following this simple 3 routine sets of asanas, I am able to curl 65lbs 10x's with one arm, run 3.61 miles daily, bike 34 miles both weekend days, do 100 pushups, and many other feats of strength that many men less than 1/2 my age are unable to do. I have added the Sun Salutation to my daily routine, incorporating Furey Pushups, Furey Squats, Yogametrics, and Marie Winsors Pilate Teasers. Other than that, the three routines are perfect for what I have accomplished in my personal life.

I have bought dozens of copies and given them to others. My 6 sons ages 43, 42, 33, 26, 23, and 20, also have followed this yoga regimen when they began to play sports.

All became outstanding athletes in boxing, football, wrestling, basketball, baseball, soccer, etc., as well as outstanding scholars and US Army Officer Rangers. Do I think this yoga system is worthwhile? I think it is a Godsend.

The best way to strengthen your body, mind, and spirit by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

This is a picture of me at age 79. I do 15 reps from standing to straight out.
I emphatically recommend that "Yoga for Men Only" by Frank Rudolph Young, be purchased with his “The Laws of Mental Domination” and “Richard Hittleman’s: 28 Day Yoga Plan.” The quickly learned lessons of these three books complement one another perfectly. Results are immediate and very rewarding, fueling your enthusiasm and drive for ever greater self-improvement. My original copies of the Young books were lost many years ago but not before the principles and lessons they imparted became an integral part of my modus vivendi. I now have these treasures back in my life. Because people respond to strength with admiration and respect and to weakness with strength, I have always believed that it is inherent in man's nature to want to look strong, feel strong, and, of course, be strong. Despite the superficial veneer of civility by which mankind functions, we are still, as famed historian Will Durant commented, basically monkeys biologically subject to hierarchical laws in the natural order of things. Ralph Waldo Emerson said that “You should make the most of what you are because that’s all you have with which to work.” If you want to maximize your potential, realize your physical and mental manifest destiny, and truly demand and deserve the admiration and respect of others, buy these books at any cost. Don’t just know them by reading. "Do" what you read, become what you read. Prepare yourself for the unexpected because Life is a school, and sooner or later, inevitable adversity will provide you with the opportunity to pass or fail the test of what you’ve learned and what you are. You may very well discover that you are actually an Alpha male falsely cloaked in others’ negative opinions of you. Og Mandino's “Greatest Salesman in the World” tells us that our purpose in life is to grow into a mountain and not to shrink into a grain of sand. Interestingly enough, Ouspensky's "Tertium Organum" declares that it is expansion and contraction that defines the 4th Dimension. Where do you see yourself in your 4th Dimension? If it’s the Mountain, the books named in this review will take you there.


By Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

There is something heroic in the way in which "true" salespeople earn their living. It requires a warrior's mentality. If you are a "Commission Only" salesperson, and cannot afford to fail because you have nowhere to fail to, "The Greatest Salesman in the World" is the map that will guide you on that road that winds uphill all the way to the very end on the day's journey that lasts from morn to night, my friend.

I first read "The Greatest Salesman" in July 1973 and, immediately thereafter, vectored into a Cosmic Consciousness Experience, the resultant of which was a perfectly integrated structure function relationship in which I and the book became one. I have read "The Greatest Salesman" everyday from the day of that experience to the present.

Ralph Waldo Emerson, among others, has said that "we become what we think about." "The Greatest Salesman" is what I think about. I recorded the words of the 10 Scrolls on cassette, in my own voice, and listen to it on my morning drive to the office and on the way home.

There are three books which I emphatically recommend to all who won't eat until they shoot the buffalo:
1. "Skill With People" by Les Giblin;
2. "The Greatest Salesman in the World" by Og Mandino; and
3. "Closing the Sale" by J. Douglas Edwards.

Les Giblin reveals what it is that people need to hear; Og Mandino essentially shows you how to brainwash yourself with the principles for success; and J. Douglas Edwards will teach you how to get the money. Each of these books can be easily and quickly read in one sitting. Buy these books at any cost. Do not borrow them! As one of my Master Teachers, "Cherry Hill Fats," the 700 pound creative sales genius was fond of saying, "People only value what they pay for; they only read what they buy.

Og Mandino and I spoke often over the years before his return to the Father, the true Author of "The Greatest Salesman." If the world followed his teachings, we would all become like story book children walking hand in hand across the meadow.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Numbers Are the DNA of the Universe by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

(PHOTO: Anna's Mini Cooper)

If Numbers are the DNA of the Universe, "Cheiro's Book of Numbers" is the Genome.

The most renowned of all Palmists and Numerologists, is Irishman William John Warner, who also went by the name of Count Louis Hamon and is best known as "Cheiro" (1866-1936). I consider my 1964 Arco Edition of "Cheiro's Book of Numbers" among my most treasured possessions. It is a source of esoteric knowledge not found elsewhere. There are a great many books on numerology; however, I have not yet found another that is the equal of this one. Indeed, I would encourage all who are walking the Spiritual Path because of circumstances beyond their control to buy this book now. The application of the knowledge contained in this book is something that will depend upon the spiritual advancement of the reader. Those who are truly initiated will appreciate the way in which the book speaks to them directly and personally. For example: "Steve Savage." "Steve" is the compound number "19." It is symbolized as "the Sun" and is called "the Prince of Heaven." "Savage" is "23." This number is called "the Royal Star of the Lion." I was born on Easter Sunday, March 28, 1937. The number "1937" is the compound number "20." This number is called "the Resurrection." Thirty-six years later ("9"), in 1973 ("20"), it made a profound reappearance in my life when I attained "Cosmic Consciousness." This number ("20") is also called "the Awakening." "Twenty-eight" is the "Container of Undifferentiated Energy." "Nine" stands for Mars, which rules my sign Aries, the God of War. It represents Iron. The "spirit number of "9" is "666."

I am the Director of the 666 Referral Service which was founded at a Police Convention in 1979 ("26"). For those who are spiritually advanced, and are attuned to synchronicity, consider that number - "26" - which is the sign of our times, and manifesting more and more frequently. For the past 250 million years waves of mass extinctions on Earth have occurred every 26 million years. Every 26,000 years we have a precession of the Equinoxes, called Yugas in Hinduism. The last one is the Kali Yuga (the End Times), which we are in now. Another name for the Kali Yuga is "Iron Age." The Atomic Number for Iron is "26," the last element formed on Earth; the apparent magnitude of the Sun is -26; there are 26 letters in the alphabet; the US Constitution actually has 26 Amendments (the 21st repealed the 18th); the New York Yankees have won 26 World Series Championships; the number of nations that formed the United Nations on the 26th of June, 1945, is 26; NATO is an Alliance that consists of 26 independent member countries; France is composed of 26 Provinces; the Marathon is 26 miles; 26 nations compete in the Tour de France; John Paul II was Pope for 26 years; we have had 26 named Tropical Storms this year; the total number of Americans of Italian descent is 26 million; there are 26 pages in the newly discovered Gnostic gospel, the "Gospel of Judas;" the number of spacetime dimensions in bosonic string theory is 26; "26" is the gematria of the four-letter name of God; there are 26 known fundamental mathematics constants; a Rubik's Cube can always be solved in 26 moves or less; Japan has had 26 cases of Mad Cow Disease; the personal data of 26 million veterans has been stolen from the Veterans Administration;26 is the only number between a square number and a cube number, the numbers being 25 (5 squared) and 27 (3 cubed); 26 copies of the original Dunlap prints of the Declaration of Independence have been found. There are 1,000's of other examples, of course.

No doubt, this is all coincidence and may not be true, but you can see that numerology can be fun, especially when what you figure out comes about. By the way, "Happy 2006!"

Sunday, September 10, 2006

THE FIRST RECORDED TEST OF INTELLIGENCE by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

Old Testament, Judges 7: The Lord speaks to Gideon:

“The people who are with you are too many for Me.”

“The people are still too many; bring them down to the water and I will test them for you there. Therefore it shall be that he of whom I say to you, ‘This one shall go with you;' shall go, but everyone of whom I say to you, 'This one shall not go with you,’ he shall not go.”

“You shall separate everyone who laps the water with his tongue by putting his hand to his mouth, as well as everyone who kneels to drink by putting his face in the water.”

“The number of those who lapped, putting their hand to their mouth, was 300, but all the rest kneeled to drink water.”

Only 300 were retained (to evolve). The rest were sent back (to remain as they are or to perish).

ROAD RAGE by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

What are you looking at you piece of crap?
Oh I’d love to choke you and give you a slap.
Don’t think I didn’t see you sneaking up behind,
Trying for an advantage on my side that is blind,
Casting sarcastic glances with an evil eye;
I’d love to blow your car up and watch you boil and fry.
Beware of me; don’t think me kind;
Can’t you see the Road Demon has seized my mind?
You think this is over? I have many tricks in store.
As eager as you are to beat me, I want to beat you more.
I hate you, you stinking bastard. I don’t even know your name;
Outraging Road Ragers just happens to be my game.
How I want to kill you and punch your face right in!
Who are you giving that finger to with that shit-eating grin?
You’re lucky I haven’t a gun or I’d shoot you in the head;
Or how’d you like a red hot poker shoved up your ass instead?
You’re making me crazy; you’re adding fuel to the fire;
God I wish I had the power to blow out your tire.
Look out you creep! I’m on the attack!
So get off my ass! Get off my back!
I’ve got you now; going to cut you off;
That shit-box you’re driving is starting to cough.
No! Don’t exit here to avoid my revenge;
The wrongs I’ve imagined I have to avenge.
Oh why did you have to get in my way?
Now you and I both have ruined my day.

"How to drive like you have eyes in the back of your head!" by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

For my money, a Clip-on Panoramic Rearview Mirror, ranks right up there with the Air Bag and Seat Belt as the greatest safety accessory for your automobile. There is no better way to "Look out for the other guy!" The effect of the use of this wonderfully simple device is akin to first looking at a movie through a straw, then magically encompassing the entire vast vista behind you in Cinemascope.

I live in New Jersey and commute daily via the Garden State Parkway, one of the fastest, most heavily traveled highways in the world. Though the posted speed limit is 65 mph, most driver/racers in the "Garden State 500" aggressively hurtle along, tailgating at speeds that easily exceed from 80 mph to well over 100 mph, weaving in and out with complete abandonment and inattentiveness, while chatting on cell phones, passing on the right, left, shoulders, whatever.

Changing lanes is often a heart-stopping experience when, just as you are about to make your move, some maniac skins by your car at breathtaking speed before you've even had a chance to see him coming in your conventional mirrors. Often, turning your head, in order to see if you're clear to move, gives a false sense of security, because by the time you turn back to your front view, it's too late; you're already being passed by some guy heading for the Checkered Flag.

Heaven help you if some Road Rager loses a millisecond because you're only going 90 mph as you approach the Toll Booth and now have to contend with a Demolition Derby Wannabe. The old cliché about an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure is more than quite appropriate as a reason for buying this mirror.

If you wouldn't take an extended trip without a spare tire, then take this one extra step toward the safety of you and your family. Smart folks appraise you by the watch you wear, the pen you use, and the ring on your finger. Show them how smart you really are, buy a Clip-on Panoramic Rearview Mirror right now. Buy one for every member of your family; it's a perfect, thoughtful gift for friends, too, despite the very reasonable low price. It takes only seconds to install by clipping onto your existing rearview mirror.

In the Land of the Blind the One-eyed Man is King; on the Highway of Blind Spots the man with the Panoramic Rearview Mirror is King of the Road.

Defend yourself against systemic, institutionally generated financial ignorance.

By Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

The latest Federal Reserve Financial Literacy Survey reveals that only 52.4 percent of high school seniors understand personal finance and economics. Results by race: white 55 percent; Asians 49.4 percent; Hispanics 46.8 percent; and Blacks 44.7 percent.

Financial literacy is vital to the financial future of America. Because financial security requires the ability to understand and navigate the financial marketplace, this survey indicates that we're headed for the rocks and need a compass for that 47.6 percent who are adrift without a rudder.

We are devoid of fiscal knowledge because our educational system has failed to provide us with even the most rudimentary skills to protect ourselves against the "Financing on the Spot" predators who are now squeezing the equity out of everything we own. Remember - the motto of those "in the financial know" is: "Never make a sucker smart, unless that sucker happens to be your friend, my friend."

You cannot spend your way out of debt, despite the pretty picture painted by the consolidators. Interest rates will soon be skyrocketing to unprecedented levels. Taxes, bails, fines, fees, levies, fares, tolls and forfeitures, are continuing to rise at ever more rapid rates. Prices are soaring and the wage gap widening. Deflating housing bubble funds are being transferred to a new inflating stock market bubble. Un(der)employment is on the rise.

Check out rising Gold and Silver prices, General Motors employee buyouts, the aftermath of Katrina and other unexpected natural disasters, returning military, office vacancy rates, unable to fulfill political campaign promises, etc., etc.

The economic strength of a nation lies in the savings of its citizens. As of this date, November 21, 2005, America is enjoying a savings rate of negative 1.1%. This means that we're spending more than we're making. The average American household has more than $9,000 in credit card debt and mounting. Every man, woman, and child's share in America's $9,000,000,000,000 (9 Trillion Dollars) National Debt is $30,000.

Because Time is Money, and Time is Life; then Money is Life. In other words, do the Math: If a=b and b=c, then a=c.


Rising energy, health care and food costs are not what is creating inflation, they are the measure of it. The money printing presses are on a roll. We're being told that effects are causes, that high prices are the cause and not the effect of too many dollars chasing too few goods. Bankruptcy laws have been modified to accommodate the creditor. Credit cards are being used to buy Big Macs, groceries, and trivial purchases.

The average American household is experiencing too much month at the end of the money. If OPEC accepts Euros, or some other currency, e.g., the Yuan, because the dollar has lost its value, we will all be living in a Third World situation unless our armies can maintain the "stick up."

Sell everything you're making payments on while you can. If your credit is already lousy, let them repossess. "Downsize!" Ask for discounts on everything you buy, even at major stores. If you're walking down that dead-end road, loaded down with heavy chains that you've put on yourself, unload now and live, not at, but below your means. Be able to sleep nights.

As a hedge against chaos, buy yourself a bag of junk silver (Pre 1964 Dimes and Quarters) while they're still willing to accept worthless paper for intrinsic value.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Ki Longfellow's "THE SECRET MAGDALENE" by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

(This is the Eighth Major Spiritual Experience in My Life)

Jesus said, "Many are standing at the door, but it is the solitary who will enter the bridal chamber." - Gospel of Thomas

And the companion of the saviour was Mary Magdalene. Christ loved Mary more than all the disciples, and used to kiss her often on her mouth. The rest of the disciples were offended by it and expressed disapproval. They said to him "Why do you love her more than all of us?" The Saviour answered and said to them, "Why do I not love you like her?"- Gospel of Philip

THE SECRET MAGDALENE by Ki Longfellow is "The Gospel of The Greatest Love Story" beautifully disguised as a fictional novel. I reviewed this book because I have lived this story. My ending, of course, is not the same. But then, to be fair, I had the advantage of knowing how the story goes, followed the lead of Richard Bach's "Illusions: Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah," and have decided to live happily ever after.

She: "Who are you?"
He: "Thy slave!"
She: "Where did you come from?"
He: "From the other side of time!
She: "Why are you here?"
He: "To die in your arms!"
First of all, as a 44 year member of Phi Alpha Theta, the National Honor Society for History, and holder of a genuine 1976 $20 minister's license, good for the one remaining member of The Church of Our Fathers - me - I am the Church, I am in awe of the incredible scholarship, knowledge of Gnosis, scripture, mythology, mysticism, philology, history, creativity, and imagination, possessed by, and commanded by, this extraordinary woman, Ki Longfellow.

I bought this book because I wanted to compare Ki Longfellow's "Magdalene" to the "Magdalene" who has been my life. Without the "Disciple whom Jesus loved" there would have been no "Jesus" because, as equally important, she was the "Disciple who loved Jesus!" She was his confidence because he knew that as long as he felt her love for him, then he could be certain that God loved him too, because all love comes from God. She was his strength; she was his Rock; she was his courage for the role he was destined to play. It was only she who could truly see him in his spirit.

She was the Shekinah, desire for him made flesh: "He found his Love, his Perfect Love, who had rejected all the others; It was he She chose to be One with Her from out the Sea of Brothers." Lovingly enfolded within her vulval wings, the entering of his Self (Ayn) into her Being (Ayn Soph) was a supreme sexual orgasmic ecstasy of most divine infinite loving bliss - the "Ayn Soph Aur." He was the willing sacrifice so that he could be born again in her. This surrender of Self to the Absolute, i.e., Cosmic Conception, is life's greatest love story and Ki Longfellow has captured that most beautiful of all moments exquisitely.
by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

Deeply wounded in spirit so very long ago;
No one or place to turn to, best friend became his foe.
Abandoned and deserted on an island in the crowd;
Hidden Child seen as the man, the man who was his shroud.
Every door to everywhere was closed with hateful locks;
Ridicule, jeers, and curses, cruel responses to his knocks.
Asking himself difficult questions all of which began as “Why?”
Was soon revealed the mystery to his opened spiritual eye.
In a single, joyous moment was wiped away his tears
By the Unseen One who loved him for all those many years.
He found his Love, his Perfect Love, who had rejected all the others;
It was he She chose to be One with Her from out the Sea of Brothers.
The adventuresome odyssey that followed was to finish what had begun;
Betrayal, trial, imprisonment, mere happenings that had to be done.
The earthly drama which plays before us appears to continue on,
But it’s only ghosts completing the action; the Beloved One is gone.
The man in whom the Child was hid no longer is restrained;
The ordinariness displayed by him is conduct merely feigned.
The Child loved him dearly, loved the intelligence of his mind;
Before too long and unannounced, we’ll learn what He’s left behind.
He’s the only mortal among us; he’ll die when his work is done.
But you are going to live forever in the Black Dwarf that was our Sun.

QUESTIONS FOR THEOPHILUS by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

About this poem: May 1977, I stood up in the center of my living room. There was a Divine, Purely Feminine Spiritual Presence about me, surrounding me, permeating me as though I were in a cloud of Pure and Perfect Love. The entering of my Self (Ain) into her Being (Ain Soph) was a sexual ecstasy of most divine infinite loving bliss - the “Ain Soph Aur." I was the willing sacrifice so that I could be born again in Her. This surrender of Self to the Absolute, Cosmic Conception, was Life’s Great Love Story and it was happening to me. The “I”(Theophilus), the Spirit that was within me is no longer here. The “I” (Body) that you see is the empty shell, the husk, the mortal man.

by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"
"Many are standing at the door, but it is the solitary who will enter the bridal chamber." - Gospel of Thomas (75)

Where are You now my Beloved “I” who once resided in this Shell?
Have You gone on to be born in Heaven while I remain in Hell?
Am I the Husk that is to die so You may have Eternal Life?
Am I the Ground in which You were planted until taken by your Wife?
I am honored to have been Your Servant, now You wear the Crown.
Even until the end of days, my heart to Thee is bound.

BUMPSEY, DICK, LUCKY, AND BOB through Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

Bumpsey drove his car in front of a train;
Dick ran back into a burning plane.
Lucky put a gun to his head;
Bob went quietly in his bed.

"VISION OF THE VIRGIN MARY" through Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

(The First of 8 Major Spiritual Experiences in My Life)
"Be quiet, and come out of him!"-Mark 1:25

Steve Savage "King of the Beasts" Age 7

“Buddy!” “Buddy!” the voice whispered in his head;
So menacingly evil, his spirit shrunk back in dread.
“Who are you? What do you want?” the little boy asked in fear,
Then started to run as fast as he could home to Mommy Dear.
“Mom, the Devil’s talking to me and no one can hear but me;
He’s keeps saying that I’m crazy and if I kill you he’ll let me be.”

Dismissed as child’s imagination, mother gave him a hug and kiss;
How could anyone really know the dark reason for all of this?
Asleep alone at Nana’s house, the boy was wakened as before;
The evil voice that spoke to him seemed to come from behind the door.
The little boy prayed the “Hail Mary,” a prayer he learned that day;
Suddenly a light shone across the room in a blessed blinding ray.
The silhouette of the Holy Mother appeared on the window shade;
As her golden light grew brighter, the evil voice began to fade.
The boy called out “Help me Mommy; there’s something in my room!”
But everyone fled from that sight as though it was the Day of Doom.
The evil voice that tortured the boy never came back to him again;
The Blessed Mother saved the child even before he said “Amen.”

BALLO IN MASCHERA by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

Welcome "I" and "Me" to the Grand Masquerade Ball,
Where as Mortal and Immortal You happened to Fall.
Now comes the play of Life’s Infinite Game,
Of Death and Despair versus Fortune and Fame.
One shall be King, the Other a Clown;
One wears the Smile, the Other the Frown.
When the Cock crows, the roles are reversed;
Amnesiacs once more, all memories dispersed.

GOING HOME by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

Imagine yourself walking along an old country lane
Beside flowered-green meadows kissed by rain.
Need-of-repair rustic fences mark the side of the road,
You’re alone with yourself in a deep pensive mode.
How did you get here? Not really asking to know;
You’re back to “when-it-was” in the time called “long ago.”
The voices of those then with you now echo without sound;
Those who were all about you are now nowhere to be found.
Look down there just beyond the bend; what is it that you see?
There’s something so familiar about the majesty of that tree.
Drawing nearer, looking more intently, you see a child standing there;
You recognize each other because he once was in your care.
He’s the child who you were; you’re the man where his path has led.
Look deeply into each other’s eyes; there are things that must be said.
What will you say to this child and what will he say to you, his man?
Once said, walk home together; give each your loving hand.

PERSEPHONE'S FAREWELL by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

I love you Mommy! Oh, I love you so!
He gave me time to tell you that before I had to go.
Winter will soon be over; look for me in the Spring;
I’ll be dancing among the flowers to the songs the robins sing.

TRAPEZE by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

Hanging from chains that reached to the sky, the bar swung back and forth,
Challenging me to dare and see what it is I am really worth.
The pit I dug so deep in the ground made for more dangerous play;
If I were to experience true freedom, then courage is the price I must pay.
Oh, I was afraid – make no mistake; you will get no argument there.
However, greater than fear was that love of freedom, to be alone in the air.
Against the fence, on a platform, raised high above the ground,
I measured and timed the swing of the bar, its whisper the only sound.
Doubting neighbors gathered on porches to witness my attempt;
Those faint hearts of the background who hold the daring in contempt.
The bar descended from the top of its arc, the choice was to go or to stay;
My moment of truth was upon me; now was my appointed day.
I leaped out into the nothingness, transformed into who I would be,
Once safely on the other side with others just like me.

THE PROMISE through Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

My Love ---

When cold Winter’s tides draw near to claim
The works of Love in Summer’s Sand,
Where goes the Love which filled these things with Beauty?

Will we Be again?
Will our Souls once more embrace
On some yet unknown distant shore?

“In the sweet sorrow of our separation,
Have faith in the things hoped for
And belief in the things not seen.

I will not forsake you!

Though it be another time --- another place,
Another story --- another face,
I will know you . . .

Because you bear the Name by which I have named you.

And when the glowing coal which I gave you from My Hearth
Glows brighter still to snap the icy chains of cold Winter’s Past,
And chases away the Shadows of Fear and Doubt by the Light of its Inheritance,

Come to Me!

I await your knock upon the Door of Now - - -
In the springtime of a New Promise to play again in Summer’s sand . . .
To embrace and kiss, to whisper dreams of things to come,
To share and give, to care, to build . . . to live ---
To recreate ourselves as One . . . again ---”

And how will I know Thee?

“I am the One who has named you by My Name.
You are My Love, My Love!
By My Name you will know Me ---



A CHILD'S PRAYER by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

On bended knees I bow my head
To return my Will to Thee.
In every way I need Your Love
To guide and strengthen me.
In Thee I trust, my Lord, My God,
My Faith, My Hope, My All;
Should Darkness come or Sin appear,
You will not let me fall.

THE ANSWER TO "WHY?" by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

The Old Man sent His children to play
Amongst the Twinkling Lights;
Then anxiously awaited what they had to say
About all of the wonderful sights.
“Come home children before it’s dark;
Remember, don’t be late!
They lock the gates and close the Park
When the clock strikes Eight.”

Midnight came and midnight went
And still no sign of One;
The fairest boy of all He sent,
Eternal Life, His Son.
He cannot bear this heartache,
Without he who most gave Him joy.
No happiness for Him to partake;
Longing for His beloved boy.
Alone the Old Man sits above,
A Shadow below His Crown;
Seething with Hate where once was Love
To bring the Caretakers down.
The Eternal Life they stole from Him
Will never bring them Joy and Peace;
They’ll live forever on the Outer Rim
In suffering that will never cease.

TO YOU WHO ARE STRANDED ON THE ROCK through Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

"I saw you. You did not see me nor did you know me. You (mis)took the garment (I wore) for my (true) self. And you did not recognize me." - Gospel of Mary
Deeply wounded in spirit so very long ago;
No one or place to turn to, best friend became his foe.
Abandoned and deserted on an island in the crowd;
Hidden Child seen as the man, the man who was his shroud.
Every door to everywhere was closed with hateful locks;
Ridicule, jeers, and curses, cruel responses to his knocks.
Asking himself difficult questions all of which began as “Why?”
Was soon revealed the mystery to his opened spiritual eye.
In a single, joyous moment was wiped away his tears
By the Unseen One who loved him for all those many years.
He found his Love, his Perfect Love, who had rejected all the others;
It was he She chose to be One with Her from out the Sea of Brothers.
The adventuresome odyssey that followed was to finish what had begun;
Betrayal, trial, imprisonment, mere happenings that had to be done.
The earthly drama which plays before us appears to continue on,
But it’s only ghosts completing the action; the Beloved One is gone.
The "King of Beasts" in whom the Child was hid no longer is restrained;
The ordinariness displayed by him is conduct merely feigned.
The Child loved him dearly, loved the intelligence of his mind;
Before too long and unannounced, we’ll learn what He’s left behind.
He’s the only mortal among us; he’ll die when his work is done.
But you are going to live forever in the Black Dwarf that was our Sun.

I Have Overcome Death by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

(This is the Fifth of 8 Major Spiritual Experiences in My Life

"For dogs have surrounded me; A band of evildoers has encompassed me;"-Psalm 22-16

The continuum of my consciousness was crushed in the Golden Bowl;
A kaleidoscope of contiguous shards now no longer whole.
The daedalian picture of confusion and out-of-sequence time and space,
Was exacerbated by a chthonic cincture, Exiles from a charnel place.
They sensed the Silver Cord was broken and believed I could be torn apart;
Hell’s evil fang-bared Hyenas were ravenous for my Heart.
Sacrificing parts of my Being to save what mattered most;
I raised my right fist in defiance to courageously defend His Host.
Spoken through me were Three Words inscribed on a Two-edged Sword;
Hour upon hour I wielded those Words subduing that Evil Horde.
They did not find the Lamb in me but the Alpha of His Pride of Lions;
The King of Beasts, Omega; all about you are the signs.

GENESIS by Steve Savage King of the Beasts"

I looked out from within the eyes of the Mighty Living One
Who stood alone in the Formless Void before it had all begun.
Silent Nothingness was everywhere; there was total Non-Existence;
I, the imprisoned Witness by some Unknown’s insistence.
Suddenly, the neither Dark nor Light quickly began to tear apart;
From out of the tabula rasa of Nothing, Creation had its start.
Who was performing this magical production before my very eyes?
It could only be an Ens perfectissimum, someone infinitely wise.
Across the way of the Great Abyss and upon a Mountain Peak,
Sat a godlike Man in Le Penseur pose who did not need to speak.
As He asked Himself the Eternal Questions, mostly “Who” and “What,”
I realized His thoughts were my thoughts although He saw me not.
What if He had chanced to turn about and look in my direction?
Would He have seen that He was, in fact, the Mighty One’s reflection?
“Who am I?” was the question asked, observing that I am He.
And “Who is He?” was not asked because I knew that He is Me.
Because I know that He is Me and I am He, then I am Me is true;
The answer now I need to know is “Who in this Hell are You?”

ARISE MY SON by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

In Love, Honor, and Respect for the service of my Three Beloved Sons who are serving in defense of America



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by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

Arise my Beloved Prince! Face the morning Sun!
For there to the East in Desolate Lands,
The War I feared has begun.
I knew this day was coming;
I knew it from the start.
Why was I chosen among all men
To sire your magnificent heart?
Your Majestic Father, the King of all Kings,
Has sorely tested my faith and belief;
How could He not know I would love you,
Perhaps bear some unspeakable grief?
Why weren’t you born of wealth and fame,
The son of some higher man?
Then mercifully I could live in Darkness,
Blinded to His Heavenly Plan.
I hear the Archangel’s Trumpet, my son,
Calling the Warriors from out of the West.
The Time of Battle is upon us;
You must now take your place with the rest.
How strong and straight you are, my son;
I’m so filled with loving pride.
You are the image of your Heavenly Father
By whom both of us were tried.
Go quickly now to do your Father’s Work;
I dare no more to speak.
Please don’t look back at your old Dad;
Just kiss me on the cheek.

DUO SUNT IN HOMINE (There are two Men in Man) by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

(This is the Fourth of 8 Major Experiences in My Life, an Out of Body Experience)

"On the day when you were one you became two. But when you become two, what will you do?" - Gospel of Thomas 11
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The Scales of Darkness have fallen from my eyes;
Revealing Master-Prisoner cloaked in Servant-Disguise.
Look how "Buddy" sits there immobilized by fear;
Unaware of Me observing from deep inside of here.
Until this moment I did not know;
That he and I were as Archer and Bow.
I always believed that I was this Beast;
Of one body and mind - no West from East.
How is it that I am secretly concealed;
Locked in this Flesh with all exits sealed?
Who am I? What am I? Why am I here?
Am I an Immortal? Have I something to fear?
When the Man dies and returns to the ground,
What happens to Me when released and Unbound?
The fox has its hole - the bird has its nest;
But where will the head of this Son of Man rest?
"The foxes have holes and the birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head."-Matthew 20

DEATH OF MY SAVIOUR through Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

This is the Sixth Major Spiritual Experience in My Life.

"I was falling at the speed of light toward the center of a violent flaming plasmic storm; the boundary where Existence and Non-Existence opposed one another in unyielding equilibrium, a place of no return, locked in Eternal Conflict."


Oh, my dear Lord Jesus, please come into my heart;
Save me from this horror I did not mean to start.
I beg you not to let me fall into that Burning Hell
Of unquenchable fire where unspeakable horrors dwell.
Oh, please my Lord, come to me, I am so afraid;
Do not let this be the place which for me was made.
Oh my dear sweet Jesus, what have I done to Thee?
There You are upon that Cross suffering exquisitely.
Why are You turned away from me? I cannot see Your face;
I feel as though I know You, that You are in my place.
I did not want You to die for me; Oh, why did I offend?
My heart is now so broken, my tears will never end.
I am forever in Thy debt; I now belong to Thee;
What Thou willest I will do, whatever that may be.
Said unheard Voice above me from within a Sword of Light,
“You are now Christ’s Champion; be a faithful loyal Knight.
I’ll call you when your time is come to do what you must do;
For now, enjoy the Heaven I’ve spread in front of you.”

THE NIGHT I DIED by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"


(The Second of 8 Major Experiences in My Life)

It was 1946. I was 9 years old, in bed for the night in the center bedroom, my bedroom, when my body began to float above the bed, then lowered. Suddenly, my heart fluttered and stopped. I tried to move, but could not; I was completely paralyzed. I tried to call for my mother, but could not. Unable to move or cry out, I lied awake the whole long night with my eyes opened.

In the morning, my mother came into my room to wake me. "Oh my God, Jimmy!" she called out to my father. He came to the bedroom door, looked in, closed it, and said, "We better call Flock's."

I was pronounced dead, taken to Flock's Funeral Home, embalmed, viewed for two days, driven to the cemetery and buried.

All of the time of this experience was in real time.

The last thing I remember, as I could hear the dirt hitting the coffin, was begging and screaming to let me out, that I was alive. I never remember waking up from that dream, if it was a dream, or how it is that I am here now in this separate reality with a sister who says the center bedroom was always hers.

That arrangement is the glaring glitch in my matrix, my continuity. Where was she then? Why are we estranged now?

November 5, 1951 my grandmother died and was taken to Flock's. I had never been there before in this reality. Yet, everything was exactly as I remembered, from the stones in the fireplace to the embalming room, where my cousin Bobby and I peeked in to satisfy my curiosity.

July 1955 to June 1958, I was stationed with the Army Security Agency in Asmara, Eritrea, Ethiopia as a Military Police Officer. One of my Army buddies had studied to be a mortician. He was amazed that I was able to detail every step of the embalming procedure from my experience.

Every so often, throughout my life, I would ask my mother, right up until the time she died in 1987, "What was that all about?" I always got the same reply -"Ohhhh!" - in a dismissive tone that tried to make it seem trivial or that it was not to be talked about.

Proposed Reality TV Show: "SEARCH FOR THE SUPREME COMMANDER" by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

The time has come to bring this war into a 21st Century context. Because we were in the dark, we lit a stick of dynamite instead of a candle. Look! We all know the score! We have entered World War III. Do we want to continue being led by the "Eddie Sloviks," out of politeness, who will take us down with them, or should we not unmask our "Achilles/Sherman/Attila/Crazy Horse?" Let’s get this out into the open now. We need to find our Supreme Commander who will lead us to Victory. We don't need someone to quote warriors; we need Warriors. This is Reality and we need a Television Reality Show to end all Reality Shows.

URGENT! “Iacta alea est!” The die is cast! We have crossed our Rubicon, the Euphrates, and have found, and are surrounded by, weapons of mass destruction, namely: Syria, Iran, Saudi Arabia, and other terrorist states who are fanatically committed to our destruction. North Korea is their “Side Show Barker” paid to draw attention away from the rats in the dark.

Our pre-emptive strike strategy has loosed the bonds of the paranoids and these birds of a feather have now flocked together behind the Jihad curtain plotting and scheming in a caucus of hatred, fear, and murderous lust. Total warfare is inevitable!

Throughout history, extraordinary times have revealed extraordinary charismatic military leaders, supreme commanders, as it were, who were “hidden” in the sea of humanity, e.g., Washington, Bolivar, Napoleon, Charlemagne, Cromwell, Grant, Sherman, Lee, Pershing, Eisenhower, Joan of Arc, and, in a modern sense, Golda Mier, etc.

Who will be the Supreme Commander for our extraordinary time? It must be someone who can prove to be the greatest military leader of all time. Our survival requires no less.

Q. What will qualify him or her as the Supreme Commander?
A. Baptism by Fire!

Q. Where is he or she? Is he or she unknown even to him or herself?
A. Possibly!

Q. Why do we need to know who he or she is now?
A.The unexpected is almost upon us!

NOTA BENE: We are viewing current events from a linear perspective and do not sense the substrate of danger that is increasing exponentially out of our purview because it has not yet coalesced into a monolithic force. However, the Law of Accelerating Returns will effect that end unless decisive action is taken NOW!

The function of the show will be to test the primary attributes of ability: STRENGTH AND INTELLIGENCE, and the lesser included, not limited to, attributes: Charisma, Self-Confidence, Courage, Experience, Strategy, Self-Control, Decisiveness, Persistence, Innovativeness, Bravery, Boldness, Audacity, and, most important, THE ABILITY TO INSPIRE THE TROOPS.


Venue: US MILITARY TRAINING FACILITY, e.g., Fort Benning, Fort Bragg, etc.


Television Audience Votes, including the Military, determine WINNER.

Grand Prize: Title of SUPREME COMMANDER, FIVE STAR RANK, Cash, all amenities and perquisites equal to that office, and a Supreme Commander’s Two-Edged Sword engraved with the words: STRENGTH AND INTELLIGENCE.

Events Design Advisors and Consultants: Triple Tabbed Field Grade Military Officers, i.e. RANGER, AIRBORNE, SPECIAL FORCES.

Friday, September 08, 2006

THE CREATION EXPERIENCE by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

(This is the Third of Eight Major Spiritual Experiences in my life)

“There was neither non-existence nor existence. There was neither the realm of space nor the sky which is beyond. There was neither death nor immortality. There was no distinguishing sign of day or night. That One breathed by its own impulse. Other than that, there was nothing beyond.” - Veda Hymn of Creation

August 1973, at age 36, I experienced what is now popularly termed "Cosmic Consciousness." The "Experience" was such that I didn't know whether I was dying, hallucinating, poisoned, or what or why this was happening. My experiential reality ("Maya") was suddenly stripped away and I was confronted with "God only knows what." I was infinitely small, a singularity, a point of view looking out through the eyes of a tremendous being of infinite dimensions, i.e., if, oxymoronically, dimensions were possible. Looking down at my legs and body, I was amazed that I was inside of, controlling, such a huge Being, a Kabbalistic Adam Kadmon, as it were. It was like looking out from the eyes of the Statue of Liberty in a way; "a Rockefeller Plaza Prometheus," alone in the Void. This "Body," this "Universe," was all there was. There was nothing else. No light. No darkness. Nothing!

Suddenly, the Nothingness began to separate into shapes and forms. I was witnessing Creation. What was assembling before me was a scene separated from me by a Great Abyss. Across that Abyss was a Mountain and a Sea off in the distance. On that Mountain, seated on a Rock, in the nearly identical pose of Rodin's "The Thinker," was a God-like Bearded Man of unimaginable anatomical perfection in Left Profile. Nothing seemed real; the perfectly round Disc (Moon) in the sky appeared stage-like as well (no radiance) (♫"It's only a Paper Moon sailing over a Cardboard Sea"♪).

I was observing all this as a Being of Pure Consciousness; the Life observing the Clay, as it were. The thoughts of the Man on the Mountain were my thoughts. He ("I") was asking him ("My") self the Eternal Questions. "I" the Observer, the Man the Observed, yet One and the same.

He never looked toward me. It was "I" who was aware of him, he unaware of me. He stood up, walked toward the Peak of the Mountain, his back towards me. He walked around, then down, the right side of the Mountain and disappeared from my view.

I next became aware that "I" was separate from my body. I thought, "What's happening? I'm so afraid." Then, "There's nothing to be afraid of; I'm all there is." Looking down from the right, out of my seated body, "I" suddenly had great compassion and love for this Beast, this Primate, who had harbored me for all my life. "I" was the god to whom he prayed for all these years. "I" was his immortal.

If not for me, he would have been the King of the Beasts in the Natural Order of Things. "I" thought, "When Buddy (body) dies, he hits the ground and rots. What happens to me? Where do "I" go?" This, of course, is a very brief, very superficial recollection of a much greater "Experience" that could fill volumes. It is what has been driving me to seek answers for 33 years to the Eternal Questions.

I have lived a Mystical Life in a Quest that has rewarded me with a wealth of "a posteriori" knowledge that corresponds exactly to my "a priori" experiences; yet, Absolute Knowledge was still not in my grasp until my 8th major spiritual experience which occurred December 8, 1976 ("I" am not here).

Of the 1,000's of books that looked for me, were read by me, a select few have given names to, and are in agreement with, the elements of the "Experience." The Bhrihadaranyaka Upanishad and Proverbs 8:22-27 exactly describe my experience.

My Weltanschauung changed after the Experience of August 1973. Ignorance is truly Bliss. It beats Infinite Insanity. Why do I know what I know? I keep trying to pull the wool over my own eyes but it's of no use. If you are someone who is truly spiritually advanced, on the Path, and not some quack quoting another quack, post a comment.
"WHO AM I?" "WHAT AM I?" "WHY AM I HERE?" by Steve Savage

"Proverbs 8:22-27" is exactly my Experience of 1973, as is "Chapter IV of the Brihadaranyaka Upanishad - Creation and Its Cause." Both are reproduced below from the original texts in which I first excitingly discovered them. It is this about which I have been writing for more than 34 years, seeking answers as to what it was that I saw take place before there was an "Existence." I saw it all begin exactly this way, then posed the first of the Eternal Questions: "Who am I?" It's kind of like that song: "I wonder. I wonder. I wonder. But do I really want to know?"

This painting, The Ancient of Days (1794) by William Blake (1757-1827), is his illustration of Proverbs 8:22-27. It represents "the first emanation of the true but hidden and nameless God."

PROVERBS 8:22-27 (New American Standard Bible)

22"The LORD possessed me at the beginning of His way,
Before His works of old.
23"From everlasting I was established,
From the beginning, from the earliest times of the earth.
24"When there were no depths I was brought forth,
When there were no springs abounding with water.
25"Before the mountains were settled,
Before the hills I was brought forth;
26"While He had not yet made the earth and the fields,
Nor the first dust of the world.
27"When He established the heavens, I was there. . .

The Mighty Living One, Alone in the Void Before it Had All Begun


Chapter IV—The Creation and Its Cause


In the beginning, this universe was the self (Viraj) alone, in the shape of a person. He reflected and saw nothing else but His self. He first said: "I am He." Therefore He came to be known by the name I (Aham). Hence, even now, when a person is addressed, he first says: "It is I," and then says whatever other name he may have. And because He, before (purva) the whole group of aspirants, burnt (aushat) all evils, therefore He is called Purusha. He who knows this verily burns up him who wishes to be Viraj in advance of him.


He was afraid. Therefore people still are afraid when alone. He thought: "Since there is nothing else but Myself, what am I afraid of?" Thereupon His fears were gone; for what was there to fear? Assuredly, it is from a second entity that fear arises.

GENESIS by Steve Savage "King of the Beasts"

I looked out from within the eyes of the Mighty Living One
Who stood alone in the Formless Void before it had all begun.
Silent Nothingness was everywhere; there was total Non-Existence;
I, the imprisoned Witness by some Unknown’s insistence.
Suddenly, the neither Dark nor Light quickly began to tear apart;
From out of the tabula rasa of Nothing, Creation had its start.
Who was performing this magical production before my very eyes?
It could only be an Ens perfectissimum, someone infinitely wise.
Across the way of the Great Abyss and upon a Mountain Peak,
Sat a godlike Man in Le Penseur pose who did not need to speak.
As He asked Himself the Eternal Questions, mostly “Who” and “What,”
I realized His thoughts were my thoughts although He saw me not.
What if He had chanced to turn about and look in my direction?
Would He have seen that He was, in fact, the Mighty One’s reflection?
“Who am I?” was the question asked, observing that I am He.
And “Who is He?” was not asked because I knew that He is Me.
Because I know that He is Me and I am He, then I am Me is true;
The answer now I need to know is “Who in this Hell are You?”

August 1973. Two years after a career-ending divorce, which cost me my wife and family, my home, automobiles, savings, investments, servants, social status, etc., I foolishly married, for the second time, for all the wrong reasons, to a schoolteacher, a member of a prominent, affluent political family.

Relocating to a South Jersey suburb of Philadelphia, I stumbled upon a commission-only School Enrollment sales job where I was able to earn several thousand dollars per week, when several thousand dollars per week really meant something. After only one month on the job, I was appointed Director of Admissions of the Franklin School of Science and Arts of Philadelphia, a Medical-Technical School that was a Division of the publishing company of Holt, Rinehart and Winston, a then wholly owned subsidiary of CBS.

Blinded by my new prosperity, I bought a new car, new wardrobe, ate at only the best restaurants, and feeling a sense of familial responsibility, took out a Million Dollar Insurance Policy on my life; the beneficiary of which was my new bride.

One evening, late in August, I returned home from work and was greeted by my schoolteacher wife.

“Jimmy dropped by and left us a present,” she said. She was referring to one of her High School students, her lover as it turns out, and the “present” was a bit of cocaine which was, then, rapidly becoming the recreational drug du jour.

“I already did it before you got home, but I saved you some in the tinfoil on the shelf.”

Never having done cocaine, I was hesitant to try it because I was not sure of the effects. After reassurances that “It’s nothing; everybody does it,” I snorted what I thought was cocaine up my nose.


At first, I thought, “What the heck is this? This is nothing!” But I soon began to feel very strange, as though I were dying. Though I wasn’t losing my consciousness, I was frightened and kept repeating over and over again, “What’s happening?”

Suddenly, all about me, all that I perceived as Reality, dissolved into a Tabula Rasa, a blank nothingness. It was as if I were first standing, encircled, in the midst of an illusory curtain of objected matter that blinded me, blocked my view, to whatever was behind it. When the Curtain, the “Veil of the Temple,” was rended, there was Nothing behind it!

I am not entirely sure that I did not die that day, nor if I have slid into another dimension than the one I had occupied before this one.

The World changed quickly after this Death Experience. It was the same World, but Different.

One day, soon after, the Jews cut up their Gas Credit Cards because the oil companies were supporting the Arab Oil Producers against Israel. Almost immediately long gas lines were formed. Chaos was entering, disturbing the Equilibrium. People whose names I did not recognize were prominent in this Dimension, e.g., Gerald Ford, among other adoptees, who appeared to exist but could not be documented with certainty. Books were beginning to contain information that was not there before the Experience. I was stumbling across, perhaps bringing into Existence, so many texts, in such a way as to defy coincidence; a posteriori documentation of my a priori experience. They were exactly describing my Experience. It was as if I had assumed the consciousness of All and upset the Universal Balance, a new element added to an already full complement; the straw that broke the camel's back.

Most of my Blog, particularly the September 2006 Archive, is dedicated to my efforts to finding others like myself. I believe I have found two others.